Dreams a guy needs ... no not that kind

I just had a dream that is kind of haunting in a way. It brought out this supreme need to nurture. More than ever before in my life I really feel the need to be that nurturing person. I dreamed that Hilary had a son she was hiding from me, our son. Now let me start by saying that isn’t even possible, but that’s not really the point. I think dreams are about emotions more than what happens in the dream. I was very upset that she took our son away from me and refused to let me see him. I had this overwhelmingly desperate desire to do anything I could to be his dad, to be a part of his life and she wouldn’t let me. I currently have eleven nieces and nephews and I love them a ton. Jordan is probably my favorite right now but Kianna and Maleia (I’m sure I spelled them both wrong) are close seconds. Of course I love the big kids as well since we can talk like adults talk and do nerdy stuff together. Jordan did the cutest thing ever last Sunday when I was at a family party. He came up to me while I was eating ice cream and cake and did this sort of happy dance/seizure indicating to me he really wanted some ice cream and cake from my plate. So I obliged and he kept coming back for more … that is until I had his own plate of ice cream and cake and then he went to someone else for it. He’s run up to me a bunch in the last few weeks with arms stretched out because he wants me to hold him. It really makes a guy feel good when he’s wanted. That’s what those feelings were about; just wanting to be needed I think. Wanting to be a part of something bigger (and smaller) than myself. Being a bachelor is great in some ways but lame in others. I am not lonely, but I do have a desire for something other than this mundane life I’m living right now. I want to move on. I want to have someone to care about, that cares about me. I’m a pretty giving and caring guy and being a bachelor kind of spoils that. I think my dream is just a reminder that there are better things out there. I hope that makes sense.