A day later

I love ambiguous titles that can be read into. So I'm worried I'm not embracing the changes that are before me as actively as I should. I don't feel like elaborating about that. I just think I need to be more proactive and today was anything but proactive.

I've got a busy work week ahead of me. I'm not looking forward to it. After this week I get dumped back into CS 3 days of the following week. I think I may have made it out to be worse than it is. All that aside I am doing great at work, but I think I'm letting my potential as a person fall very short. I've learned a lot about my potential from my current job though, which I'm grateful for, however there is so much I can still do.

After hanging out with Tiff the other night I realized how much I've neglected a lot of things like writing and playing my guitar. They're both things I am really good at but I typically haven't done anything to develop those talents. I really need to just force these changes through and give up on that complacent lazy behavior that I have embraced the last few years.

I've really enjoyed being in touch with Tiff again, and I hope that things will continue to be good. I see myself falling into certain mindsets, which really bugs me. That's probably the #1 thing that is bugging me right now. I'm very different than I was with Hilarie or Laura or Debbie or Holly. I just don't feel like it at times like this.

It's very calming to write though. I feel like I'm getting all that anxiety and frustration completely out of me and transferring it to these words. It's a very nice feeling.

Tiff is a really awesome girl. I couldn't say enough good things about her. Hopefully I'll have more to write about her in the future, for now I'm just taking it at whatever pace it comes at and hoping that's the right thing to do, but it seems like it is.