I had a pretty good day, actually … shit it’s hard to put it so simply.

I had a busy day and the better part of it was just stressful. My dad is in the hospital, it was for something procedural. He’s ok, there was a scare but he’s doing ok. I can’t handle hospitals and I had other stuff going on so I didn’t go see him. I feel bad for that for a few reasons, one, his damn wife oozes guilt trips. The second thing is that I know he wishes I could come. I need to talk to him and explain that hospitals basically give me a fucking panic attack since Mom was in and out of them so much two years ago.

Once I talked to a few friends at work about what was bugging me I felt better. Work was pretty busy with a big project wrapping up and me being at the head of it. My boss said he didn’t think I seemed stressed at all and was impressed that I was handling everything so well. He was very understanding about the whole thing. Of course he didn’t have to be because I wasn’t exactly letting my emotions show and it didn’t affect my work at all.

I got to see Tiff tonight. We went for a walk and just talked and then came back to my house and talked some more. She had to head home early so she could get ready for a trip to Vegas for her sister’s wedding. Still an hour or two was really nice. Have I mentioned that I really like her? Cause I do. I seriously haven’t put myself out there like this in a long time. I obviously wasn’t heartbroken about Hilarie so I didn’t there. Hell for that matter Hilarie never really loved me anyways, she loved the idea of having a husband that was someone else entirely. Tiff gets me, it’s pretty cool. I don’t have to bullshit around and pretend I’m someone I’m not.

She left early and so I played some wow with some friends. Not sure why but they were kinda douche bags to me tonight so that just put me in a bad mood. Course it’s a damn video game so I stopped playing it when we were done, no biggie. Still certain people just piss me off some times.

It’s a weird day. Started off feeling great, got super stressed with the Dad thing and work. Calmed down, had a great hour or two with Tiff and then end it by being pissed off. So odd.

By the way I wrote this out in word originally with no intention of sharing it. I just wanted to say what I was really feeling and thinking and the blog tends to mess that up, but I decided to just write it cause it’s how I feel and that really should be the point. Course I have been so inconsistent I’m not sure anybody reads this anyways.